Labor for NOTHING

15 August,

This morning, I don't know what had got me into it, but suddenly I was dreaming about spending good time at my dream destination that I want to go at some point in my life, like Walking and feeling the sand underneath my feet at Miami Beach, travelling around the Great wall of China, Roaming around the Los Angels and New York City, going to Disney land like stuffs. Everybody has such dreams and Imaginations. But out of nowhere I came across one thought. One very simple thought. What if Right now I am living my earlier fantasies and dreams? Did it hit hard on you?

Earlier in my young teenage days, I used to imagine being topper of the class and that of whole school. Later when I really topped, I had no enthusiasm. No zest left in me. I was preoccupied with going to college and doing great there. When I became ill last winter. I used to imagine being healthy, fit and fine. When I was well and doing great in my health and body functionality, I no longer value it. This hit me hardly this morning. It paused me for a minute. Literally for a minute. I got up. Walked 3 steps to face the mirror. I see me. The young me might have become thrilled just to see this form of me standing tall, doing well in health, education, mentally, physically and socially but this me, seem to undervalue it. I might dream just to have a look at the Tallest Eiffel tower at Paris, but what for the man who has his own shop in front of  the tower? Thinking of these stuffs, thrilled me internally. I put my right hand to my left chest. Underneath the large Ribs, I sense tiny heartbeats. These tiny heartbeats have made all possible. It had been present throughout my life, and I never got time just to feel it for some seconds. I don't have time to love the flame that had been burning and lightening my world. May be on my dying days, I would truly value these tiny heartbeats. Why is it so hard to ENJOY small things? Does it take such heavy sacrifice out of your life just to enjoy birds flying over the horizon, or to smell the beautiful Rose flower?
When I realized this small fact, I begin to love being myself. I don't see flaw in me, I see beautiful and smiling me, learning, growing and enjoying. I begin to love everything that had been present in front of me. I look at my bed. Yes it is scrambled and mismanaged but at least I have this bed to sleep. With this thought I happily  seem to manage my bed. Now I realize, this is what positive thinking all about. Why do you want to live? If you have nothing to live for. Tell me, What do you stress so much for? To become happy? Seriously, Is happiness so costly? Why should you labor so much to undervalue everything? These question help me ascertain positive attitude in me. I don't  care what I lack, I seem interested to welcome more of such positivism in me.
 I think this realization, have changed me in a way. I slow down, sip in water. For the first time, consciously I have enjoyed drinking water. Come on, isn't it interesting. Give time to enjoy small stuffs. I know, I may get lost, and may forget these small things  in the coming days. For those times I need to remind myself of this article. Thank you.